Working on the grounding part

Artist Date to the woods and not just to walk the path. 

     A place of grounding

8 x 8 Collage on watercolor paper, 

Timing is great....Full Moon Eclipse

I'm outside this morning all wrapped up in a long sweater and Yeti cup of coffee stationed up under the Gazebo that has dimmer lights and my fresh lavender & thyme candle.  

The Morning pages were good and welcomed my rant and my gratitude. I feel and know that when I come in contact with people these days, which isn't too often I leave a distasteful attitude. It's like I know better but the mind detours me out of that better knowing.  

Juggling so much and then not....frayed threads left out all over the place,  let's say wild women hairs.  Some are nasty chin hairs...just giving you a pictures of my attitude lately.  (going into 6 months of caring for my MIL and it's got this gal needing something)   

I have a cooperative MIL that is staying with us who needs us to do most of her needs, she a strong one though 85 years old and has gone through much loss and still working through some others. As my husband and I chat before bed, some of make our own problems and blame them on others...which is a good awareness in my own thinking.  

Continuing my journey around the Medicine wheel I am looking in at patterns of behavior I have so that I can change the threads, wild hairs and pluck the chin hairs so to say.  Ironically I like wild hair and frayed threads its the nasty chin hairs that have got to go.   

Pestering and blistering the Heart, a feeling I personal have that I'm doing to myself.  Change is upon us all and none to soon.  "Stop this behavior,"  No really stop it!  I tell myself on the page again and again..."you are losing your peace and serenity you work so hard to have...you practice it daily, continue this aspect not the other."  

Everything is a process and when you are only focused on half of the picture with your nose stuck in massive details of everything you don't like, or want to be happening, you forget to see what else is possible.  The ability to make things happen is possible every day with in reason that is.   But the bigger things will need some guidance and help from that Spiritual presence that is so much more loving.    I read about spiritual development just this morning in a meditation... develop more spirit. 

I had a day yesterday that I planned for, but also I had to understand the plans could change as they often do with others involved.  But they didn't change and I was able to take my new repurposed sit upon I made to the woods with my drum, some sage and an open heart. 

Made a few of these in my youth and now I have an elder sit-upon...

 Sitting on the ground was a challenge as the poison ivy was every where and so were the spring beauties.   It always amazes me how different plants grow more abundant from year to year with the way spring enters in.  So I stayed on my sit-upon and stared at the sticks popping up all over and around me with the famous leaves of a poison ivy looking back. 

Now the poison ivy can't jump on you but I did have a tic jump on me...funny, though I will be keeping an eye open for things the next few days.    

American Dog Tick

Poison Ivy just doesn't grow on trees...I was taught it's opportunist sort of plant. Where every it can get that Sun light it will grow, so in your under brush of the woods, tall grass prairies and up an old oak tree you will see this plant.  

The thought of the world popped into my head about the beauty among the ugly nastiness. It lives side by side, we are aware of it and cautious not to touch it and scratch it. The positive and negative of the world, yes is part of us, ying/yang of life...What can we spiritually developed?   

I did pick the spot to sit with my sage and drum yesterday.   Also among the spring beauties, and poison Ivy was the grove of redbuds.  You really have to see the bigger picture and not just the little details...Like in the fall how color transports you when your in a grove of maple leaves that are rich yellow, so to in the spring by the redbud.  

Well time is passing this morning and the practice of working from the heart space and allow things to unfold will be a challenge with eldercare, my art business, self care and a marriage of 42 years. Let's say "We, the husband and I have survived a whole lot of stuff and we are stronger together then apart. 

Lastly...my personal reminder.... forced solution don't work, though the unfolding has a gentle flow and easier way to it.