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Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Dinner, Drumming, Art Tribe....with some healthy anxiety

So here I go again....learning and filling the head with mumbo/jumbo...not really...just always reaching to education myself the way I've found works...well sometimes.

I've been getting some nudges and I've been giving in to them and it's exciting and also kind of scary, though as I read these books about Art and how to use it in life, all of life...I seem to know it all to well. Eye opener....been living it and processing it...

The book by Shaun McNiff-Trust the Process

A person's license to create is irrevocable, and it's open to every corner of daily life. But it is always hard to see that doubt, fear and indirectness are eternal aspects of the creative path.  

This statement on the first chapter of this book hit me....In the process over the years, I know I'm not alone on this...read and heard many stories...the doubt, fear and indirectness are as strong or stronger sometimes then the other side of the coin when continuing being creative. There is so much more to this book then what I'm babbling about there. (What I've read so far is very affirming)

I circle (monkey mind, over thinking and distorted sometimes) around every event, class, workshop and exhibiting opportunity...one would think it would be time to be pass it all.  No their there....doubt, fear and indirectness all the time. Might it be time for the "Acceptance" and to make peace and balance. Reality is life isn't a smooth path....hear me know...Thank God...because that would become very boring for us folks but I seem to wish this way too often.

Doubt....not confident in ones own abilities
Fear....lost perspective-faith 
Indirectness....the need to know before hand....Crystal ball would be nice. 

So as usual...I've been going through the process of preparing for the 7th Outdoor Studio Exhibit and little by little chipping at getting things ready.....the doubt slips in and I've been know to lose all perspective and wonder....Stop this I keep telling myself...just stop this thinking!

I look at the list and put blinders on and keep going...nudging my way somewhere. With all this preparing moments of great inspiration have also been right along side the DoubtFearIndirectness stuff and I've been working on my "Totem" as I call it and I'm wondering now if that is even a good name for it/them (I would like to make two more)

Well I will be preparing, hosting for a bunch of Creative Women tonight, and that means with creative taste buds.  I just pray the food all works out...and then not sure when but we will have a drumming experience.   My first beside standing in my studio to some music on the IPod. Must be my age and my right of passage that this is come about.

I know well I don't really know but can Imagine that one doesn't want to listen to this ramble but it's all healthy.  It's part of the process...the anxiety of the moment and how it will all work out...where's my crystal ball...what fun would it be if we know everything?  Really...I'm experience life in it finest form through emotions and my senses.

Seeing life only in black and white....(though I love black and white) is not a healthy perspective...As I've shared with some of my Sage Women, Elders the Grey area is where they find themselves more now these days.  The doubt isn't a form of black or white...it a place where I can stop and get my barrings/land legs  and see....As I have had dinners before, in fact 35 people over for thanksgiving and we  were all full and happy at the end. (confidence in myself) Allowing fear to step in is me not looking at the steps I can take and trusting in those manageable measurements of abilities.  And having indirectness is just being a willy-nilly.  Once one as stepped into the realm of all that is filling them with anxiety...something happens...all that emotional hooey goes out the window...things that you didn't image come forth and you are making new choices that keep you present in faith and well you've made it through the other side of black and white to the grey. The wonderful Mixture of life has blessed you  now with possibilities. All this is life...a natural process in all aspects.

Pep talk over and getting excited....to be in this day doing what I'm about to do. Expectation....are to life in the moment and experience what is....Accept as it is and adjust myself to it and a wonderful mixture of grey will be upon me. I do love grey...

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Behind the scenes....

 I've got some of my Tack Down Tuesday piece that I've decided to mount them on the wood panels...here there drying with a layer of clear satin varnish. Tomorrow I'll be the strap hangers on and wire...and check that off the list.

 Yesterday and the day before I matted and packaged some works and framed others... building up my stock of work to present soon.

 Journals read and 2015 Calendars too..

And these piece of I have energy left the rest of the week I might mat and frame them up or mount on the wood panels.

I spent the morning after yoga cleaning the house...I know I'm going to have to do a quick run by before tomorrow when the Art tribe comes over...my Menu is Lemon, Artichoke Chicken, with possible some roasted beets with apples and pine nuts a nice salad too and for desert I've made this glutton free Chocolate Zucchini Bread that will the base and then some vanilla ice and some fresh raspberries. I just hope and pray it all works out...you know like Thanksgiving that it's all warm or read when needs be. 

Monday, August 18, 2014

Getting creative all over the place

I managed to frame up 6 piece of art, cutting the mats and glass and I had enough frames that it worked out nicely.  In stead of doing yoga this morning. I was up there early in my night gown with a my apron on and just going to town. Came down and got a shower going and went food shopping...hit "the farm" and got some good veggies.

I'm trying out a few new things....a zucchini bread and some pancakes... Plus I was able to finish my journal last night for my personal Morning Pages..

I'm going in all directions I know...hoping to have enough energy for dinner cooking...corn on the cob, some nice pork chops and some fresh green beans...I've been trying things out before Wednesday when I have the art tribe over...make to see how some thing work, being there new recipes...well the pancakes were for me today...left over shredded zucchini...had to use it up.

I need to clean my home today or tomorrow... clutter away "poof"  darn it, it didn't work...guess I'm going to have to get physical with this now...Oh saw the movie, Hundred foot, Journey...was good.

Last thing just pulled out the Chocolate Zucchini bread and it looks good...I'm planning on cutting it to nice thick slices and some vanilla Ice cream and some fresh berries on top...

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Stuck in Question

The husband asked this morning...what's up? I see it on your face, as he looks at me while I scrolling through facebook and thinking about my day and all the stuff others are protesting about and happy things other are sharing....my face and body language is about wanting to unplug....disconnect from something that was created to make us think we need it...

Sure I'm right there marketing and promoting and sharing my happy things too...but their is this angst about not being connected that way...

Then on the other hand I've made some wonderful connection with people across the world...where's the balance in it all....? I'm tired of the broadcasting of my own stuff but I do because it's about getting the word out....it's where we are now in the world, "On-Line."

Going to do Yoga...and see if I can find a calm spot and make peace with this morning angst....I really don't know where it came from but I'm yammer about it on line, on my blog, a means of socializing stuck in Question....I've been blogging for since 2005 or 2006, almost 10 years of this....and tomorrow I'll probably make peace about and send out an blast....love/hate of it. as in many things in life. Acceptance...my word of the year....along with RAW-Real, Awesome, and Whole... not being very RAW am I...but learning about the acceptance. 

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Artist Date Last Night

In June I asked the Indian Prairie Library if they would like one of my pieces.   I've had this piece hanging in my home for sometime and well with delight it's hanging in there now Second Floor children section.  The Silent Couple...all hand made papers from plant fibers and a final coat of bee's wax, made the frame myself and well so happy they accepted it.

I love the way the simple red lines push everything back and the values in this piece..another photo of Zhou Brothers works...more below...
 Went to the Zhou Bro. Art Center...four or is 5 floors of artists and studios and gallery's....Oh my!  that's right the 10th annual Self Portrait show and a few of my artist friends have work on exhibit there in the 4Art inc Gallery space. There was an exhibit of the Zhou Brothers work on display so I always love looking at it...this is one of them at caught my eye...and keeps my interests too...I think it was called "Dance in the Front Yard."
 My photos's are a bit jumbled here took them in my phone and transferred over this morning and they always come up funny...I came up one of the back stairs and there this exhibit of work was....Repetition one of my favors to see...and love the shadow effect that was playing off the wall here made the physical photo's even larger that she used. I believe it was an exhibit of her friends jewelry.

 Now I think this Zore's work or Mario Gonzalez Jr.  I took some picture of his work for my daughter that works now with inner city boys and well there from this environment of graffiti and tagging places and she asked them why the do it....for the risk of doing...well...you can move it to the wall on a piece of plywood extra and really make art with it...kind of interesting.
another image of Mario's work...."Top and Bottom"  I like the shapes and symbols and the material that is used. 

Now as I came up the stairs and saw this artist work then walked down the hall way to the main hall I looked around the corner and there was more...I was just in awe of its presentation.

I went to see Tania's work and Nancy's work in the 4Art Inc Gallery which I did and my last stop before heading home it was great to see them and their work hanging in there. 

Friday, August 15, 2014

Traffic sounds.....

 See the line papers there in this magazine paper I tore out and used in my second sketch....the first sketch is the post note.  Well the papers I liked a lot...the lines and meeting points.

 I had to share this photo sent to me by a dear friend and artist, who is the head of her art department down in Georgia....if you had an art teacher like this in High School...I don't think I would want to leave at all...truth is I never wanted to leave my art high school studio rooms...

 This is a third sketch that came to me and the piece I'm making is still evolving...not sure it wants to be something a sculptural as this sketch...but maybe the next one...not sure.

I keep thinking it's me....so excited to be sleeping in the tipi I can't go to sleep...and well no natural sounds don't bother me...crickets singing away or coyotes howling but it's the traffic sounds that I just can't get over how much there is....You can get a peek at the tipi at night...I just plugged in the lights and you can see the plastic I laid down for the mattress and the stools stacked in there for a gathering...which by the way I'm waiting for a nudge on when that will be....its really cool to lay there and be in this circle and when the lights where out I could see the stars last night out the vent hole.  It was a bit cold but I snuggled up and tried to sleep...  Much to do today as I've got to keep getting things prepared for the exhibit....grateful I work small steps at a time...and tonight I'll be heading over to Zhou B.Art Center to see Tania's and Nancy's work hanging in 4Art inc. should be a great night....anyone want to go with me?   

Thursday, August 14, 2014

OK had to add this

The experienced creator is forever intrigued with the unplanned results that emerge from faithful practice. But this is one of the aspects of creative expression that beginners find most difficult to accept. I was just visiting an art class where the teacher was trying to help her student appreciate that what they "want" from a painting is often quite different from what they "get" So much of art education involves an appreciation for what arrives from outside the scope of our preconceptions.
-Shaun McNiff

Never miss a chance you say....to hush up?

Well as I said the homestead is pretty quiet...people coming and heading to their private spaces so that is now around dinner time but prior to that now one was home so I went to the woods...Greene Valley...didn't climb the big hill, not open till the weekends but did walk the main trail...The mind was full of chatter and I had to walk a bit before I could really listen...not much but I was caught with movement and followed that. Then as I got into the old woods area I heard it...the wind through the different trees. The wounds were very different as it went through the Cottonwoods to the Oaks...and then the Honey Locus trees with the fans of repeated shapes branching out....There were moments that I actually stopped to here if I could hear anyone come up the pea gravel...but just my hearing playing games with me...I was into the 3rd mile when my one hip started talking up....I heard that and had to tighten the stomach muscles so that weight would be off it and pulled up...Every once in a while I have a bout of this..and the next day I can go walking and have no pain and do a good 4 miles.

I drove home after stopping in to the art league...it was hard to listen to the directory there as her finger and mind were into the computer and then phones where ringing...time to say hi and good bye but first walked into the studio space and checked it out and the new sink area which is beautiful...it will be nice to clean up tools in a well light room.

When I got home, had some lunch but was at a loss...direction..I wanted start this one book and read in the tipi but I didn't...went to the studio and didn't turn on the radio and just listened to the sounds outside, the  chimes and road noise. Completed the to image transfer I had set to do and then let them dry...grabbed some 8 x 8 wood panels and taped them off and painted them a mixture of brown black on the top and sides that were exposed.  i had enough paint left so I prepared a 10 x 24 and a 12 x 36 wood panels.
You can see the edge on the side that is dark...on the Ampersand board they have visible but the wood panels from Dick Blick you can do what you want to them but I do prepare them like this.

After I had all the chatter out of my mind...to listen a thought came in...Glory be...ha ha ha but really Everyone more I drain out all the garage I think going on in my head for the most part and then I like to fill it with good positive stuff from a few mediation books I have or from something new I want to learn about.   Like my Mentor...I only know this because she told me she has a pile of book too that are sitting and be shuffled around as needed.  So I grab a new one..."Trust the Process- An Artist guide to letting go."   by Shaun McNiff...got a few more of his ordered....some how with the way I'm drawn to teach there's a Art Therapy aspect to it all...the creativity process that is,  and I do work in process which is hard for most people till the give it a good try.

So many good things in there....I want to share but fingers will be really sore...and I've trailed off long enough.  

I didn't pull out all my work that needed to be proper present for the Outdoor Exhibit here really soon but I prepared some wood panels for some new works and to apply some other tack down's to...switch it up...

but I did get a chance after doing all that and lay in the tipi and read...so it was a very good day...I've got plans to sleep in there tonight. 

Being a good Listener

So a few days back I started to reread "Tree Spirited Woman" and well I've been trying very heard to put in to practice this next chapter on Listening.  I'm one that has a hard time keeping quiet or lets say getting to the quiet.   For some reason I'm a mind circler and not so much in a bad way but I really do think it's for comprehension of understanding...I gravitate towards that and with it comes connections.

So to be quiet to really listen...I get it in Yoga...I've got my eyes closed and listening to the DVD instructor and breathing...I get it when I'm walking too. I flick a different switch and slide in to the moment. Tree Spirited Woman share's "silence is hard for many," and there is much one misses if time is not taken to hear and see one's surroundings.

The last few days I've tried to put this all into practice.  I so easily slip in my house...being that when everyone leaves in the morning they don't have much to say...so I feel like I should say something...and then they grumble and head out the door....at which point I'm left with the house sounds or if I want to put music on.  I end up listening to my circling but on days when I encounter people I'm really trying to give my nervousness of silences some time and wait before I start to babble off.

Yesterday I gave it a better try for most of the day. It was interesting it be there for them the gift of listening...and that's a way to put it in to the right perspective is a gift...so many people do that for me...not sure if the want to really listen to my circling thoughts but with my rambling I do I receive the gift so much I just feel blessed...now to continue to put it into practice on my end and return that gift...what I'm find out is there's more silent moments and I need to be able to be comfortable with that...always an opportunity to grow.

Tree Spirited Woman shares, One does not communicate with words only. One also communicates with tone of voice and the physical actions of the body. When one truly listens, one sees, one hears, and one feels all that is being spoken.

Here's where I would like to learn more..."Those who truly listen are not thinking of the words that they will soon speak; they are looking at the person who is talking, and understanding all that is being communicated. This gift of listening will leave the person who has been talking with a feeling of having been heard."  "All people need someone to listen." "The gift of listening does not cost money, but it will be greatly treasured by all who receive it"

off to be a good listener now even if it's in the woods at first and I think rightly so...

Being Present.

Nothing major happening....and that's good being present in the peacefulness and grateful. I have to run out to Naperville Art League and take a look at the changes of the studio space and get refreshed on any other changes going on in there.  I've not been in there for a few months so good to connect.

When I get back home I will be going through artwork and decided what needs to be matted and put in sleeves and what needs to be matted and framed or put on a wood panel, I have many tack down Tuesdays that didn't find a home yet so best get them prepared...and a few others that need to be presented nicely.

So off to do some yoga and prepare for the day...