it's that time of year- 3 questions I ask myself

 For the New Year of 2021

 Three Questions

 

Who am I?

Why am I here?

Where am I going?

Comment from an Elder I know... We live in a world of flux and it is easy to be knocked off balance. but after we have done the groundwork to answer these three questions and can answer them succinctly, we are now on a good solid foundation from which to move forward. Think on these questions.  Make attempts to answer these three questions as part of your periodic checkups from the neck up. You will find for the most part that once you are able to answer these three questions even if the upheavals of Life knock you off balance you have a good sense of where you can find that balance again.

The Call to answer is upon me this morning.... But the answers may have started in the head as you can read but ended up from the heart.  I was getting anxious about answering the questions. I do them annually and it wasn't coming till this morning.  Everything has it's time again I'm reminded.  I will look at this often through out the year.  I will print them out and have them in my morning page journal as I move through the year I will be present to their really meaning.  Some times I even journal write more about them then just listing them.  What ever is to be this new year I'm Staying Open as much as I can.   This doesn't stop life from being life but it centers, grounds and helps me balance through life. 

Who am I?

I am an aged woman

I am an aged married woman

I am seasoned and cycled and happier for it.

I am tired from last year’s events, death, virus and illness of loved ones.

I am an artist that works with paper on many surfaces

I am becoming whole

I am letting go of so much baggage of my past

I am a resilient person

I am a quiet loving caring and consider partner

I am a contemplative one

I am one that likes to work through things with my creativity

I am a fire started inspiring people to come to gather

I am one that follows through on what she says she is going to do

I am pretty much happy

I am one that does have anxiety

I am one that forgets I am not doing this alone; I have a higher spirit in the Greater Spirit to help

 

Why am I here?

I am here to be a good supportive partner to my husband

I am here to be an elder

I am here to be a loving daughter and daughter in law

I am here to work a good 12 step program and relearn about life

I am here to be a creative person

I am here to teach others to be creative

I am here to work with my hands

I am here to continue a generation and pass on any wisdom I have

I am here to learn about balance, centering, and grounding

I am here to walk my talk and talk my walk

I am here to witness life and share my experience

I am here to Listen to others

I am here to have good friendships

I am here to love with all my heart and be vulnerable

I am here to share a life with a wonderful man

I am here to practice a spiritual path with a human path

I am here to be a student first and then a teacher afterwards.

I am here to see that my inner knowing has been a steadfast way all my life

 

 

Where am I going?

I am going in to elderhood

I am reflecting on my life

I am going to settle into the still moments of life

I am going to keep life simple

I am going to continue good healthy eating

I am going to continue walking in the woods

I am going to take some time to enjoy my husband company

I am going to continue creating my art from a raw part of my soul

I am going to make some hand made paper in this new year.

I am hoping to do some small travels again with art workshops

I am going to be a good Listening to ear for my family and friends

I am going to pray and meditate more with the Greater Spirit

I am going to continue my work with myself in my daily practice of journal writing

I am going to continue my art and processing of life with my art.

 

I would like to walk a Labyrinth

I would like to drum and sing more this year not just in the woods but with others

I would like to see the bison close by us in Joliet

I would like to do more kayaking

I would like to visit my mom

I would like to go on a trip with my husband to see the ocean.

I would like to looking over life stuff and make some plans for our retirement. 

In the end, an artist’s Life is grounded in integrity and the willingness to witness our version of truth. There are no set markets that assure us of safe passage. This week focuses on personal responsibility for our creative caliber and direction. Self-respect lies in the doing, not in the done.