Taking a look at my older works...

 12 x 12

 12 x 12

 14 x 34

 12 x 30

 24 x 48

 12 x 30

 40 x 40

 small piece 2" x 6" 

12 x 36 

I woke up this morning and wonder....which can be exciting....as I am not being majorly prolific during this holiday season...I know I have a tendency to shut down...fear that it's a creative block or something worse...?

Crazy pants for sure...this whole year I've been aware of  how every day and some times every minute acceptance is called on and to just be.  So opposite of my nature...

One of my favorite sayings is...I will adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my "luck" as it comes, and fit myself to it.  As I come to acceptance again the uneasiness settles and there's a natural calm.

I got out of the shower and looked at this piece...hanging in the bathroom.  

I like to make landscapes like this...I love to layer my papers..and break the layers of the middle ground, up creating a variety of interest.  So as I continue the acceptance of the season and that I'm not as prolific as I have been...I wonder and ponder about the next pieces...I so badly want to get back to the idea of tall works...I call totems.

So this is a bit lengthy but all self-discovery has purposes as of staying open and not stuck.  I seem to like the vertical as much as I like the square format...acceptance of what comes natural is another part of this all...Famous words..."Find something you love and you never have to work a day in your life"  Well when you go with the flow and the natural inner guidance I think the work becomes easy and less of a burden....I have to watch the word Dread and what that's all about...(fear) and work with a flow....which is faith. Personal direction from a spiritual adviser.   

I posted the work for myself...I know it sounds crazy but when seeing so much out there on Inter Web as the guy from Fast and Loud would say...one can get caught up and forget the path they were on...so not comparing... more so redirection and get back to where "I'm to be."   The whole purpose for this holiday break is for this....though painful sometimes...I'm so grateful I can get through and continue on. Not seeing growth right away...can bring on impatience but knowing and trusting the important growth is underneath where not many really know or have to know about.