Continually seeking

This morning after morning pages I ran upstairs to the studio and gave my image transfer one last coat.  They will be going into the packet for the Ill. Art Teachers for Friday.  While I was doing the Zen things of coating I just have freshly read the beginning of the Artist Way, and the thoughts of growing, learning and a continual quest of some sorts seem to have come over me at that moment.  Life is an ever changing, no doubt about that and being place in it so am I.  The need to know more and seek more....of what? I asked myself.   And it came to me, Seeking to understand the mystery of life, connect, disconnect and reconnect at a different spot has been a life long path of mine. 

This time in my Artists Way book I have to draw a loopy flower next to the things that speak the loudest to me...the book has so many personal notes on the side bar of the pages that I for sure will lose pointers I want to think about and ponder more.

Practicing the art of Creative Living....I wonder if I've always been on the quest or journey?  The quest to become more creatively rounded into a full time person.  What does Full time Person mean to you?  I think I understanding to be more present in my day, moment and life.  Stop dying in past and clawing at my future...Live now fully in this day.

I realized something yesterday...in class while I was rambling in center stage... I was pulling from life analogies and bring them to art...and how creating any kind of art and it's processes can be brought in to the life we live. I've done it all my life but to really speak it is was kind of wild.  Words where working and rolling out of my month yesterday quite well. I know because it came from a deeper place then ever before.

The practice of knowing there is good orderly direction flowing through my life is a path way for more at all levels.

As I read more this morning...still in the introduction of the Artists Way book, I'm at a different place then were I was last year and from her words...."I am astounded I could let go of the drama of being a suffering artist.  I think I thought I was and had to be...in some way...have I let go of that?

I have a piece of art work called  "Strawberry Eddie" hanging in my bathroom right now. Little 10 x 10 collage on canvas.

 

I like the word Eddie...which from my understand it's a word that can be used when thoughts of deeper understanding are about to emerge...and you pondering those thoughts, rocking them back and forth...or just plan trying to make sense of it all.

 

Julia's words,  "In a sense, as we are creative beings, our lives become our work of art."  When I hear people say their now creative...I think they are cheating themselves...and limiting themselves to only a small part of a bigger whole.

 

I also believe with the changing going on all the time that we fight or try to control parts of us that has to come to the point of acceptance that we just might have to re-learn something...start over, no but achieve a bit of alignment now and then...just seem natural instead of staying stuck in ways that have changed for what every reason and aren't working any more.

 

From Julia Cameron words, "I am suggesting you take the term creator quite literally. You are seeking to forge a creative alliance, artist to artist with the Great Creator. Accepting this concept can greatly expand your creative possibilities."  or darn I say live a more full time creative life, but some don't believe or want to accept...so be it.  Staying open though to new attitudes could lead to new perspectives or a new out look on life all around you. 

 

Triggering Synchronicity

 

It's time..."Leap, and the net will appear"

 

At this point I understand the concept of Midwiving and witnessing my own creative process.

 

Creativity is an Experience - to my eye, a spiritual experience.  JC shares.

 

What we play is Life-Louis Armstrong

 

Are you hungering for a creative living?  I know I am...and I think always...and grateful to be in this place where I hunger...or seeking.

 

Life and it's ever changing process as JC shares, "Peak and Valleys phase of growth becomes a series of expansions and contractions, a birthing process in which students experience intense elation and defensive  skepticism." 

 

Edding on  the thoughts, that relate to life and giving birth...without great detail...when giving birth of any sort...it's never a simple painless process...Natural that is, there's pain and struggle.  We forget that and want to side step the pain and the intense natural process of that and get on with the McServices of life. When we are always there, my belief is we miss out on the growth as creative human being...we have to know some sort of pain to understand growth and we have to allow it to happen in others so they can to know what it's all about... the mystery... seeking it in my life is a creative path way of understand myself and the world around me...

 

OK time to step down from whatever podium I was standing behind...be it that I've been doing this book so long I believe the stuff she says like a guru or I'm a believer in is because I've lived it and put into practice. I'll take the latter.

 

A Creative U-turn in our life is a process too,  a free-fall of a major ego surrendering...remember E-Easing, G-God, O-out. When I realize this concept I understand and can move forward...  but that's the pain I was sharing about...growth, and a creative life I do believe in.  

 

We slowly pull force and I realize what I've been involved in, ego....or easing god out, the creative force in my life.

 

JC's words- Many of us find that we have squandered our own creative energies by investing disproportionately in the lives, hopes, dreams, and plans of others. Their lives have obscured and detoured our own. As we consolidate a core through our withdrawal process, we become more able to articulate our own boundaries, dreams and authentic goals. Our personal flexibility increases while our malleability to the whims of others decrease. We experience a heightened sense of autonomy and possibility.

 

Working through the Artists Way is a recovery process in finding a more spiritual creative life and with that some and most of the problems start with how I personal see things so, with JC's words...We ourselves are the substance we withdraw to, not from, as we pull our overextended and misplaced creative energy back into our own core. 

 

We begin to excavate our buried dreams. 

 

I'll leave it at that.... Share if you want to...as you can see, I've picked up the Artists Way book and now I'm sharing my personal thought with you about it...You could pick up the book too and take the journey with me If you would like.  I'm facilitating a live group at Mayslake Peabody Estate and I have ten people and would like to only take 12 as the time to share and listen is so important to the process when sharing it with a face to face group.  My hopes are to be called Mayslake Artists Way group...kind of cool but that's a whim not really a dream and not sure if it where it's suppose to go...depends on the group.  I won't get clawing into the future on that one...stay in the present and let the rest take care of it's self.