Empowered with taking down a brick wall.
The Family asks...so mom you Survived? Yes I did now I'm embarrassed to say that I had fear but that fear of having a gathering of my peers over...has been a great learning experience...as it took me about 5 years...way to long to do this..and It became a wall I personally built between having some good relationships... all weird I now but sometimes I feel that I'm relearning things over at this stage in my life, though scary at times it's really kind of empowering too, it also means I'm alive.
"The Intellect has little to do on the road to discovery. There comes a leap in consciousness, call it intuition or what you will, and the solutions comes to you and you don't know how or why"
Albert Einstein
A question was asked last night by one of the gals from the art tribe gals I belong to and its interesting...She asked aren't you afraid of putting something out there and it coming back to haunt you? Wow one of those moments when I feel like Miss Congeniality...Oh becareful you might fall in front of everyone...ha..ha..ha..Oh I did that already... What I mean.. is doing the social sense is something that now everyone can see and do. Were all sitting behind something and typing away and searching and gathering information and it's kind of a cool thing right at our finger tips. And as everything else in life some take it to far and use it against you or jump on the drama llama and ride that around. Or even worst steal your ideas.. But despite it all there are few that like myself that will take the risk and just put it out there...marred, unfinished, not polished and half-assed spelled right and go with it anyways. And maybe a handful really read it any ways so what the big deal...in the big picture will the really remember it all?
And then I've just has a big deal and shared it with the internet universe and I'm still standing...actually stand in my own self bit stronger for doing that anyways...making mistakes or stumbling and learn from this is one of the great gifts we can give ourselves. It may be filled with extra emotional baggage but it's something that we can survive and thrive because of it..
Ok so rambling on up to the studio to take all this experience and put it some where for the good.
"The Intellect has little to do on the road to discovery. There comes a leap in consciousness, call it intuition or what you will, and the solutions comes to you and you don't know how or why"
Albert Einstein
A question was asked last night by one of the gals from the art tribe gals I belong to and its interesting...She asked aren't you afraid of putting something out there and it coming back to haunt you? Wow one of those moments when I feel like Miss Congeniality...Oh becareful you might fall in front of everyone...ha..ha..ha..Oh I did that already... What I mean.. is doing the social sense is something that now everyone can see and do. Were all sitting behind something and typing away and searching and gathering information and it's kind of a cool thing right at our finger tips. And as everything else in life some take it to far and use it against you or jump on the drama llama and ride that around. Or even worst steal your ideas.. But despite it all there are few that like myself that will take the risk and just put it out there...marred, unfinished, not polished and half-assed spelled right and go with it anyways. And maybe a handful really read it any ways so what the big deal...in the big picture will the really remember it all?
And then I've just has a big deal and shared it with the internet universe and I'm still standing...actually stand in my own self bit stronger for doing that anyways...making mistakes or stumbling and learn from this is one of the great gifts we can give ourselves. It may be filled with extra emotional baggage but it's something that we can survive and thrive because of it..
Ok so rambling on up to the studio to take all this experience and put it some where for the good.
It is funny the way we see ourselves compared with the way others perceive us. I see you as very confident and self motivating, one who can "get 'er done". Kudos to you for stepping out of your comfort zone and facing your fears and challenges. The tough times you have dealt with have made you a stronger and better person.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jan! Congrats on overcoming your fear. I see you as VERY brave.....laying yourself wide open on your blog and constantly working on yourself and pushing yourself to try new things! I think of you as a real pioneer woman at heart!
ReplyDeleteThanks Ladies for you support, Can't be brave all the time...and I know it's not the thing to do is post about you struggle on line but Heck...if it helps one get through something by sorting out thoughts with typing etc...who's it hurting if you've learned something for your self in doing it.. Not claiming to be perfect but the problems starts with thinking that.. or trying to make everything perfect and you end up really only hurting yourself. Just great it past and all went well. I was thinking of deleting it but decided not to.
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