Finding Water Week 5
Essential to any
creative unfolding is sense of self-direction. We are the “origin” in “original.”
The tasks of this week will help you to specify exactly who and where you are,
locating the powerful currents that trace through your life. Listing your loves
will allow you to move closer to them. Listing your fears will allow you to
move beyond them. God lives in the details, the concrete, knowable facts of
your life. As you explore you psyche and tis place in you environment, you
compass will become ever more accurate in pointing you true north.
Doctor’s Advice 1
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you
do are in harmony.-Mahatma Gandhi
A key- Whenever I’m not writing (sculpting, drawing,
collaging, sewing, cooking) enough, I feel overwhelmed. And when things take
large chunks of time out our time earmarked for it…we might have a Hissy fit- Well
I should speak for myself, I know I can do that.
The plan for Optimistic balance had been sought, though life
was a bit out of whack JC comments. And she shares if she could just write
through it things would calm down, again the words-“Keep the drama on the page,”
lecturing herself.
At this point she’s talking from experience but she shares about
the Drama that follow’s her around and spill over into her life, other people’s
drama that is.
I so relate to this statement JC makes- Before emotional
Sobriety, the simple grid of a positive life lived one day at a time is all
that is needed. Such a life must be free of frenzy, free of the frantic rushing
here and there that cannibalizes tranquility. Setting a gentle pace for your is
what the doctor ordered, the world has been too much to handle. Just keep it
simple and guard yourself against despair.
Divining Rod Task
work- Create a gratitude list 1-25 and see how you feel afterwards.
The Abyss 2
Human life begins on the far side of despair. Jean-Paul
Sartre
Change is not made without inconvenience, eve from worse to
better- Samuel Johnson
JC in this section has shared about her moment, and how she
uses what she knows can help her work off the edge of the rim of the glass, as
of talking about the days newly sober and how she made it through. She had to
become willing to work through it. Small steps…phone calls etc. She shares about writing something small and
something centered in the day that she was in.
Staying in the Now, and asks herself what is it that has her so
frightened. Julia had latched on to the
string of despair and was being dragged along, and taken on someone else drama
which could feel like being in the Abyss I could imagine.
Divining Rod Task
work- When large fears overrun us, we must turn to tiny yet revolutionary actions.
When the chips are down it’s time to rent a comedy. Invite some humor in.
Knowing that the abyss that you feel you’re in will pass. It is not time to get serious about becoming a
better person. You are already a fine person, you have just lost the
perspective that tells you so!
Going back to Basics
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Julia Cameron has shared her despair or the emotional bender
of terror she just went through. From my understanding she knows what to do but
still needs help from friends. Taking some sound advice she goes back to the
sane and steadiness, and knows enough to be gentle with herself. All this is a perspective
adjustment from my gathering. Going back to basics doesn’t mean we invite more
drama in can’t afford that. Going to daily habits, like a few simple things and
keep doing them. Morning pages, artist dates and walking. The picking up of the first doubt and allowing
it to slip in lead to a downward spiral of her own deep despair. “When one is on an emotional binge the anxiety
is like a drink. Your system is drunk with anxiety. You need to do tiny things to move yourself
back from the chasm” As basic as this sounds, wash your hair, clean your room,
fold clothes, and straighten sheets. Do concrete actions in the life that I
actually have not in the terrible life that I imagine as coming toward me, she
shares. So what are the facts? Facts, unlike fears, are sober.
Divining Rod Task
work- Sticking to our grid of positive actions adds to our shaky
self-esteem. There is power to be found in perseverance. “Don’t quit five
minutes before the miracle” Write a letter to God, and be humble and ask for
help. Asking God to meet us exactly where we are, we are practicing compassion
towards ourselves. Compassion like humor begins our healing.
Focusing on the Positive
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In times of despair it is said that we cut ourselves off
from our higher source, god, and good orderly directions. God is in the
details, the concrete facts of our lives.
Divining Rod Task
work-When joy is elusive; we must actively seek it out. List 50 things you
love. Use this list as a resource list; plan a week in which you allow yourself
to be near what you love. As you list will quickly show you, there are many
small ways in which we can fill our lives with those things that bring us
happiness.
The Bagel Scrap
When we have an obsessive fear, we hold on to it like Julia’s
dog Tiger Lily and her bagel..not letting go of it for nothing. It is a
question of being open-minded, but when our mind is trained on the bagel scrap,
nothing can help us. This is when we must learn to let go and let God. How do
we do that?
Tiny things catch our attention and tiny changes begin to
happen along our neural pathways. We have something to chew over besides our
bagel. In a moment of distraction, we drop the scrap.
What happens when we drop the scrap? We may have a moment of
free-floating panic. We may dive wildly to our feel looking for another scrap
to hold on to. Freedom is disorienting. What do we do when we have so many
choices? This is when the walk helps.
So much of being sane and happy begins with the doing of
things that are sane and happy. This means that we must train ourselves to
think small rather than large. Walking
is a potent form of prayer. “Guide me, Show me,” we pray as we walk, and as we
walk we are guided and we are shown.
So powerful…
We do not see things as they are. We see them as we are. The
Talmud.
Divining Rod Task
work- Take a walk at a different time
than normal. By venturing out at an odd time you will experience a more vivid
focus. You are being urged to experience yourself as a character. Your thoughts
and perceptions are interesting. What do you notice that is new and interesting
to you in our habitual habitat?
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~v~Laura