Continuing on with Finding Water, Ch. 4 Julia Cameron's book of Artist Way
Finding
Water Week 4
Uncovering a sense of Balance
Pivotal
to any creative journey is the ability to resist the cliff’s edge of drama. All
of us are tempted to binge on negativity. It is the careful husbanding of
optimism that allows us to move productively forward. This week’s spiritual
toolkit is aimed at dismantling the hobgoblins of fear and distrust that poison
your well. You will align yourself with a Higher Power that extends itself in
benevolent ways on your behalf. Sketchbook in hand, you will practice being in
the now, where there is always sufficient safety for you to experience balance.
The Rim of the Glass 1
Comment from Julia’s Friend
Larry, “You’re wearing yourself out,” he said to me today. “There’s nothing
wrong with you except your attitude. Are
you getting out?
Quote: When unhappy, one doubts
everything; when happy one doubts nothing-Joseph Roux
Personal
note: It seems that Julia is sharing a bit of fleeting despair and how she’s
going to get through it this section.
How important is to have friends to turn to that will guide you through.
Knowing it’s a sluggish period and wanting to throw in the towel she
doesn’t. Or the experience of having to
do something you don’t want to do and know that you have to but still fight it
in your process of creating.
Our job is to show up, and you’re
doing your job. The rest is up to Good Orderly Direction, it actually really
truly is. Just be you at the key board, in the hand of God, Universes, and
Spirit etc. Wait, Listen, love the
silence, and eventually the silence will sing for you. As it always has and
always will.” Personal Note: it’s in the
waiting of the silence that I can have the hardest time…but have done it and
found it to be true as stated above that the silence will sing.
During these moments it might be
best to avoid people who are too negative because we might be carrying enough
negativity of our own to deal with. Why
add more wood to the fire if it’s warm already?
Julia shares that during these
times she must be vigilant at maintaining optimism. Seeking people who are
optimistic, self-starting, and farseeing. Seeking out people who are
experienced in the difficulty of trusting themselves and who have learned to do
it against the odds. Learning to live with being “different” from their
fellows. Learning how to keep our own counsel when what they saw-how much they
saw differed from consensus reality.
Personal
Note: Ok not that I should hang on to every piece of word as gold here but I’ve
heard we are special-us artists, creative types and then we’ve been hearing we
are not and now that we are different…I’m not confused but am I silly when I
say I understand what she talking about…the spectrum of emotion inner abuse one
can go through to come out of a creative block and be in recovery is really
traumatic and then to work at it so you don’t go back into a creative block.
That is what these entire books that she’s been writing are about. Staying in
reality here that’s all.
Julia shares that it’s through
people that she normal hear what she needs to hear and it comes from older
conversations she’s stored for times like this.
The Self Talk of “Your fine. Jet lag is just a biochemical event. It
will pass. The words “It shall pass” are the touchstone of emotional sobriety.
Personal
note: I know right now if I may explain this…as my monthly cycle decides to not
show up (that stage in my life where it-monthly cycle is rearrange and has a
mind of its own) there is a bus load of distorted thinking that slams it brakes
at my so called door steps…and the words I know for me that work for self talk to keep me emotional sober
are.. Honey, these are just feelings don’t act on them they will pass. I’ve
heard Feelings just are. It’s what you do with them that matters.
Divining Rod Task work- Write
yourself a evening prayer.
Faith 2
As artists, we must be in it for
the long haul, not just the showy seasons of success.
Optimism is the elected attitude,
a form of emotional courage.
As
artists we have a Vocation…love
that word. If I may pull a dictionary description.
Somebody's job: somebody's work, job, or profession,
especially a type of work demanding special commitment
Urge
to follow specific career: a strong feeling of being destined or called to
undertake a specific type of work, especially a sense of being chosen by God
for religious work or a religious life.
Julia shares, as artists, we are subject to
cycles of acceptance. There will be bleak seasons and fruitful seasons. There
will be success and there will be failure. We cannot control the reception of
our work. We must find our dignity in the doing. We must learn to say that our
work, even if unsung, does count for something.
Julia shares she clings to her faith and
turns aside the bitterness. Faith allows for a career to take detours Faith
allows for a career to even grind to an apparent outward halt. Faith takes
always the longer view. It divorces our creative practice from its current
reception. Personal note: I hear that
the word passion means in sort, to have as said vocation and to be so dedicated
to it that it hurts so much but you don’t’ give up when all seem to have done
that to you and you turn to faith and ride it out and then the pure essences of
it all shines through and you have experience passion. Not that I’ve experience
it to this level but I can believe it.
As artist we must be resilient. Delicate as
we are, we must also be stalwart. Again I think this is true for all humans’
beings. We must take our cue from the natural world
and vow to be like the perennial flowers stubbornly reappearing season after
season. Now despair is the poisonous
drink an artist cannot afford to even sip. An artist has to go forward and be
willing to be small, not large. It does no good to demand to always be
brilliant. We must be willing to do our creative work like we were doing
service work. From past experience
with what is described about I know that the service work thinking can get you
through if you know you’re in this way of thinking as of the Rim of the Glass.
Julia shares, so, too we are intended to
flower in our art even if our art does not meet with a welcoming reception.
Divining Rod Task Work- write a list of ten
things you have accomplished already you are proud of.
Keep It Simple 3
Julia shares, to ensure my productivity; I
must be protective of this inner innocent. This means I need to keep things
very simple. I cannot control the outer world, but I can control the inner
world I create in. Be gentle and fair.
As an artist, I do best when reaching for humility. I must be willing to
be just a worker among workers, just an artist among artists. Competition has
no place in this scenario Competition creates stress. Stress creates
constriction and constriction creates blocks.
A
little self-coaching with words like doable small acts daily just a little done
daily adds up to quite a lot.
Personal
note: now I’ll sound old but in this age of technology we have fallen victim to
having it now all things and
everything. And to expect the same out of our creative endeavors is really
setting one of for big disappointment. So I’m seeing for myself making the
effort to break things down to manageable small acts is a challenge but once
put in to practice it seem more natural then force quick have to have it
now. For me it’s in the process and I
fight with the quick got to have it done thinking that can so easily sneak in
without a notice.
Learning the tricks that work for us and
using them helps keep the drama on the page. So many things our out of our
control, but making art is in our control. There is always a small and doable
creative something we can do if we are willing to move ahead without a
guarantee. We may not be able to work at our art on the level that we wish we
could, but we can always do something.
Extending our selves in love toward our art
nurtures feelings of dignity. When we commit ourselves to the process of art
and not to the need to produce a saleable product, we begin to experience the
joy of creation.
Divining Rod Task work- find your calm oasis
and listen, enjoy a sense of communion with a power greater than yourself.
No Regrets 4
Julia shares about being in a dinner party
with people she see she’ll have a hard time relating to. And she shares; I didn’t know anybody
“important.” What I knew I knew, was how to write-and that often felt in
question.
JC’s shares her quick self-talk about knowing
there is something bigger than all the people there at this party from the New
York times and how with it out this source of something bigger as she calls it
God, she feels helpless and against odds. “Anything that kills my enthusiasm is
the enemy,” As an artist, we need to believe we have a chance. As artists we
all need to believe we have a chance…I feel this goes for all human beings, because we do. She believes that the Great Creator loves
other artists and is active on our behalf to find us a break. JC’s shares, I
believe this not only because I have to believe this, but also because it is my
experience.
When we compare ourselves to others, there
will always be someone who is doing better than we are. There will always be
someone who is more successful, who has played his or her cards “right” while
we have bungled ours. When we compare ourselves to other, there will always be
people who are one “up” to our one “down.”
When we meet them we feel discouraged. When
we feel discouraged, we shut down. Shut down, we “block” and our productivity
dwindles.
Personal
note: I’m recognizing some key things; competition
and comparing are areas we have to
put up the Orange or Yellow caution sign, ah? The thing is it’s there in the
line of work and we need to fight against or at least the detour sign till we
can handle what just happens with our emotional sobriety at any given point of
encountering a side swipe like these strong words that can mess up and cause
that state of distorted thinking and lead to a road block.
Question
she’s ask of us… How am I developing as
an artist? Am I doing the work necessary for me to mature? Did I work today? Yes? Well, that’s good.
Working today is what gives us currency and self-respect. It is what cannot be
taken away from us. There is dignity in work. I wear a bracelet with this words on it, “Let
it begin with me” so what I’m gathering is when these feelings of comparing
come upon us we are to stop and bring it down to a manage sober thought of
asking ourselves how are we doing and go from there.. Keeping it real for us,
grounded, or humble.
JC shares, In order to go forward, we must
live in the now. Personal note: If
you want to meet you higher power then you best be in the now, because that’s
where he is.” We must take the day that
we have been given and make of it what we can. We cannot change the past. We
can only regret it, and such dwelling leaches optimism from the day at
hand. It is one more way to be blocked and sadly effective one-if only…If Only
things were different, but they’re not.
Work against the distorted thinking. Each day, I must find something to love in
my day at hand.
Divining Rod task work- be an amateur
Sketcher… carry around a sketch book and see what happens, Illustrate your
life. “Let it begin with you”
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