Recovering a Sense of Possibility- this week you are being asked to examine your payoffs in remaining stuck. You will explore how you curtail your own possibilities by placing limits on the good you can receive. You will examine the coat of settling for appearing good instead of being authentic. You may find yourself thinking about radical changes, no longer ruling out your growth by making others the cause of your constriction.
The Virtue Trap
· Are we hearing a message and discounting it as crazy or impossible?
· Have we forgotten our source is unlimited?
· Do we send back a gift, because it’s beyond our imagination?
Cooperating with God’s plan to manifest goodness in our lives- we can begin to let go of having to sabotage ourselves. And start to understand that tapping into our creative power is a source of Good Orderly Direction and energy flow. By listening to the creator within, we are led to our right path. On that path, we find friends, lovers, money and meaningful work. We learn to let the flow manifest itself where it will not where we will it.
Gods will and our will….Which is it?
Experiment with this two-step process: Ask for answers in the evening; listen for answers in the morning. Be open to all help.
Finding the River
· Have we begun to hope or have we begun to fear that hope?
· Spiritual Dependency is a gradual one, Read page 94-95
· Recovery is the process of finding the river and saying yes to its flow, rapids and all.
Have you notice if your life is taking on a rounder shape? Do you feel like your living fuller?
Are you leaning into more creative expansion? Replace no way with Maybe.
A new positive attitude is the beginning of trust. No more confusion anymore about who we are trusting, our dependency is on the source itself. The source meets our needs through people, places and things.
We still need to do our footwork and in doing this and taking a few steps in the direction of the dream we might find the universe fling open an unsuspected door. Learn to accept this generosity.
· Down time may be taken as a withdrawal from family and friends but it’s something all artists must do.
· If artist don’t take down time they can become sullen, depressed and hostile… not good to put yourself in a deprivation like this. “The Good Wife Syndrome or the “Good Artists Syndrome”
· An Artist requires the upkeep of creative solitude or as Julia likes to call it healing time alone.
· If we don’t take this time we can become kind of nasty to our family and friends. In short, we are on the treadmill of virtuous productions and we are caught. We are caught in the virtue trap.
· Many recovering creative sabotage themselves most frequently by making nice. But what they really need is to be left alone. When we can’t get others to leave us alone, we eventually abandon ourselves.
· What can happen is our artist can check out… or leaving the scene of the crime as Julia puts it. Our creative self no longer trust us.
· Afraid to appear selfish, we lose our self. We become self-destructive. Because this self-murder is something we seek passively rather than consciously act out, we are often blind to its poisonous grip on us.
Question is, “are you self-destructive? Are you destructive of your true nature?
Creatives who are caught in the virtue trap still cannot let themselves approve of this true self. They can’t show it to the world without dreading the world’s continued disapproval.
Are you self-destruction again this question is asked? And most definitely not…Are you nice to other people?
We listen to other people’s ideas of what is self-destructive without ever looking at whether their self and our
Self-have similar needs. Caught in the Virtue Trap, we refuse to ask ourselves, “What are my needs? What would I do if it weren’t too selfish?
At least 10 times, fill in the blank…let it rip and see what happens when you wish.
I wish… I could feel more secure
I wish… I could pick up a sketch book and draw quickie
I wish… I could walk my big dog better
I wish… some family members would stand on their own feet, in stead of sapping off the elders
I wish… the elders didn't have to work so hard at surviving
I wish… their was least drama at my husband work and more old school ways of working where people really care for one another
I wish… my children to be happy and find good people to continue their lives with.
I wish… inner peace
I wish… outer peace
I wish… I would allow myself to go to life drawing classes again and just draw.
This can be a very powerful exercise that can come back to you some time in the future without you even realizing it.