Maintaining peace....

I feel like I'm rebelling from the push of Social need to spend...it's the further est thing from my mind right now...kind of like I don't like to be like the "Jone's" and run out to shop at odd hours to be in crowds of people...all doing the same things.

I'm going to the woods again today....trying to keep my attitude and perspective clean...

Our thanksgiving was the most calm it's ever been....all the young adults in the house noticed it too...no drama just preparing a gentle pace...all members pitching in and it was honestly a dream com true. I've been doing Thanksgiving since the Turkey platter was passed to me from my step mom and dad upon them moving to WI.  So not sure because I'm not so keen on remembering the details but I believe I then took over the role of thanksgiving.

I had my list out about two weeks head of time but things just fell in place as of time when I could prepare foods and cleaning clutter and making room for the family and friends.

Also I said heck with it as of washing ceilings and stuff before the be event/feast...that's what I saw my father doing...because they were smokers and needed to wash the walls and ceiling  to paint...and then I learned from my mom that everything had to be perfect...

Not that I let go of it all and didn't do anything it's just that I did things that were right for us...What you grow up with doing one things they have to follow this rules...but there just guidelines to follow till you find what works for you or in my case what work from us.

So I need to fill my well, with things that please me and help me know and understand on a deeper level...some go to church while other run the miles...I walk the woods and find in solitude the guidance I need to live a more spiritual life....seems to be most important these days...and not because life is bad or trouble...I'm knowing how peace is and calm and what I have to do to maintain it...